In More To Lose, P1LOT vulnerably illustrates the complexity of a situation that balances a relationship, his faith, and his mental health on the line. The beautiful-yet-tragic piano that the song begins, the distant percussive sounds, commanding bass kicks, and dreamy vocal samples perfectly accompany the deeply introspective lyrics to provide an intimate fly-on-the-wall experience as if P1LOT were speaking his thoughts out loud.
lyrics
Break my house into pieces
Kick down the walls
That I've been leaning on
Cant seem to find the reason that
I'm home alone, with just a tv on
Through all the static
Still see the damage
Been drinking poison
Cuz I thought I had to have it now
I'm feeling panicked
Depressed and famished
I lost a friend and they just see me as A savage now
Do you, do you
Hear me praying, I don't have much More to lose
Do you, do you?
Yeah
I don't have much more to lose
I-I-I-I don't have much more to lose
I don't have much more to lose
Oh no no no
I-I-I-I don't have much more to lose
What is the point of living
If we're living just to die?
What is the point of giving?
I got nothing left inside
Somehow you stripped me down
Til' I got nothing left to hide
And now we've given up
And I've got nothing left to try
Feels like I'm losing everybody, Everything I love
And maybe I'm the problem's
What I keep on thinking of
I know that's problematic
And I'm probably out my mind
And that's the problem,
Got a problem but I say I'm fine
Through all the static
Still see the damage
Been drinking poison,
Cuz I thought I had to have it now
I'm feeling panicked
Depressed and famished
I lost a friend and they just see me as A savage now
Do you, do you
Hear me praying, I don't have much More to lose
Do you, do you?
Yeah
I don't have much more to lose
I-I-I-I don't have much more to lose
I don't have much more to lose
Oh no no no
I-I-I-I don't have much more to lose
I don't have much more to lose
I-I-I-I don't have much more to lose
From the back and to the front
Won't you throw them lighters up
Won't you throw them lighters up
From the back and to the front
Won't you throw them lighters up
Won't you throw them lighters up
I-I-I-I don't have much more to lose
I don't have much more to lose
I-I-I-I don't have much more to lose
I don't have much more to lose
I-I-I-I don't have much more to lose
credits
released January 13, 2021
Written, performed and produced by Joshua "P1LOT" Calderon
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